This week got ahold of me…

Usually I take a hold of life. I run with it even if I am unable to do much with my day it is still my day. This week, I sit back and look at and it took over me. It is as if everything all the appointments and people around me just took over and had control of what I did and where I had to be. Its kind of frustrating because it almost feels like days I lost or at least parts of days. I know some people will look at that and think that is a bit selfish. At least I had those days, I am alive to live them but being sick most of my days it is hard to have so much time taken away and spent on so many things that I have little to no control on. So frustrating I had no time to even sit down and write or even read one blog this week… Even now I am in the middle of dinner the dog needs to go out I need to get laundry started the kids need to finish homework I need to take my meds before it gets late my cat is bugging me because he is hungry and I am taking the time to sit for 5 minutes to write!!!! I decided I get 5 minutes to myself!

Im not sure if it is my tremors starting something new and I do not want to tell my doctors but under my left eye has started fluttering for almost two weeks now. I think its stress. Lots of stress.. All I need to do is get back to a few minutes a day for myself and it will go away. Some things can not be controlled in life like the flutter under my eye but I can control a few minutes a day for myself. If I don’t how can I be good enough for everyone else around me???

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2 thoughts on “This week got ahold of me…

  1. I understand how hard and frustrating it can be. While my wife’s decompression surgery was a success, she still battles IH, and has her days. She’s most susceptible to air-pressure changes, and it changes on the High Plains — a lot.

    We’ve learned to roll with those days as best we can and make the most of the good days. It’s an attitude of taking control where you can.

    To paraphrase Martin Luther King, Jr., “If you can’t fly then run, if you can’t run then walk, if you can’t walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward.”

    Even if that means finding someone to carry you.

    Good luck. I’ll be praying for you.

    • Thank you for your prayers.. Hope everything gets better with your wife. I think I could have done better this week if it wasnt such an emotional week onto of everything. It makes it that much harder.

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