Please help!!

If you have children or not you know that you were once a teenager.

You made poor decisions, disobeyed your parents or maybe even broke a few laws?

What ever it may be…

What I am asking today is help. Plain and simple. I know as a teenager I made mistakes, I disobeyed my mom, maybe even broke a few laws but what I never really did was disrespect my mom. If I ever crossed that line I made sure to go to my mom and make sure she knew how much I loved her, how much I needed her, how much she ment to me.

Where did I go wrong? My son is disrespectful, rude, the way he talks down to me and to his sister is so dicgusting I can’t handle it. All I have ever tried to show him is love, anything he needs, wants he gets.

I don’t understand… I cant live this way. I already live in pain everyday of my life and to have him treat me the way he does on top of it I cant handle anymore. I have to fix it or…


Learning to help myself

Why did I start blogging? I’m a private person and in no way educated enough to write a great story. Or at least that is how I perceive myself. Resently I started talking to an amazing women Andrea. I get great insight from what she has to say. She motivates and keeps me going. The last time we spoke she told me that I am teaching her something’s as well. I never thought my life could be a lesson for others..

I want to find others that are going through this with me. Maybe then I won’t feel as alone? Knowing other people are out in the world right now feeling the same way. I have no reason to feel ashamed. That might sound weird but it’s hard to describe all the feelings one can have when their head is in constant pain.

Blogging will be one way that I help myself:) getting out my feelings. Sharing how I feel even if I don’t share that I have a blog with any of my friends and family because I’m chicken shit.. I can still feel good that I am doing something I want to do.